15th November 2017

Happy birthday dear daughter.

The days have passed by, they have rolled by, another year come. You would have been four today.

Things have changed. I no longer think I'm dreaming. I don't pinch myself trying to wake up anymore. I've come to terms with your passing. I know you are not coming back. I know my Hope is gone, my Nadya is no more.

So, as another birthday of yours comes, I remember you and all that you are. I wish it was all a nightmare and i will wake up sweating due to thee horror I just dreamed of but hugging you tight and thanking God its all a dream. But this nightmare is real, there's no waking up. I remember your calm demeanour, your stern gaze. I remember the way you call me 'mummy'. I remember your voice so well Mode Mi.

I remember the way you introduce your self, "my name is Modebare Akinnini Mode-B Nadya' how i used to laugh whenever you did that. Or how you insist that 'my name is not Layondo my name is Mode-B'. Oh my dear Larondo, what irony it is that you're always going to be a Larondo (my small one). How i miss you so!

I miss you Mo-Mo, i miss calling after you when you run around with those tiny legs... I miss looking at those pretty eyes. I miss your dance, your 'Agere' dance. I miss you laughter. Oh, your hearty laughter. I miss you dearly Apeke Mi, I truly wish that wishes do come true...

So, today, again, I wish you happy birthday Mode, there's no need wishing you any other thing: Cos long life is ❌❌❌ so nothing left.

Again, I'm thankful for the sweet memories I have of you. Having stumbled upon loads of videos of you earlier this week, I'm eternally thankful of the memories.

I love you endlessly my sweet lavender, my beautiful ebony eyes.

Happy post humous birthday Modebare Nadya EseOghene Elizabeth Ewaogooluwa Apeke AKINWUMI A.K.A Mode-B  Larondo