One More Day Without Hope

My mind has been focused on how not to think about you this whole week my love. By this I mean how not to be sad on your 5th birthday. I had thought having another child would make it better, Larondo mi, so so wrong. I'm thankful for your brother but I wish you were here trying to get his attention and love him just like BamBam is doing. I wish you didn't leave us my love. You would have been five today, you would have been a superstar at school. Showing off your clothes and cake. By now you would have been able to tell me what cartoon character you wanted on your cake. Oh my Apeke, I am still so sorry after almost 3 years that I couldn't save you, I couldn't be super mummy.  Irebami still speaks of you as though you only died last month. You have a brother now, we named him Obafemi, he doesn't look like you not even a bit. I've been studying his features just to see if you are in there at all, no you are not my special girl, you are irreplaceable, I...

How time does fly! At about this time 730 days ago, it had been confirmed that you were no longer with us. I still held your body in my arms anyway, hoping for a miracle. I wasn't going to give up that easily. I repeatedly sang that resurrection power song... 'Agbara Ajinde, Wa se'yani la'ye mi, l'oni l'oni wa se'yanu la'ye mi. Agbara Ajinde wa se'yanu la'ye mi. L'oni, l'oni wa se'yanu l'aye mi'. Tears had ceased, I couldn't even cry anymore. My life as I knew it had ended. You, my Nadya, my Larondo, My Mode-Mode had stopped breathing and I almost lost my zeal to live. Looking back to that evening now, a lot of things did go wrong and as much as superpowers would have helped, I had none. I even wished I was a witch with powers to raise the dead since I had prayed and nothing happened. Yet you remained dead as you have for two years. We have mourned you. Often wondered what you'd look like. If you'd still be c...