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May 18

One more day without you my love, Its actually a whole week you've been gone.

So today, I look back at the events of last wednesday.

I woke you up around 7:05, Irebami had had her bath. So I carry you the bathroom, cleaned your mouth with your alligator toothbrush and then scrubbed your body with your pink sponge. You loved water, so I splashed on a bit more. By this time you were fully awake!

Labake dresses you up while I finish packing your lunch and set breakfast. You eat Cocopops and drank extra water. I drop you and your sister at school and went to see a client at Egbeda and ran a few more errands for the business.

I return to our area around 3:30 and as I approached your school, I decided to pick you guys early (you guys have been on the 'After School' plan for a while) so you can get some rest before church service in the evening.

So we get home, you bring out your homework and settle down to do it while I took Irebami in for a shower. A few minutes later, you and Irrebami had a squabble over pencil. She took your pencil and you bit her hand. I resolved the mini war and take you in for a shower. I stopped by to pick your bag and by the time i got to the corridor you were already in the big bowl of water I stored some water in. You were having fun but i wasn't so I pulled you out and tapped your bum!

I bathe you and dress you up. Then we all settled and ate the Tuna bread we had bought at 'Bread of Heaven' bakery. That was your last meal. I shared a bottle of coke for your and BamBam and you insisted you wanted to drink from the bottle, I obliged you and turned it into the bottle.

I then ordered the two of you to go take a nap because we had to be active in church later in the day.

Being the obedient child that you are, you went in to my room and lay in bed, I bring Irebami in adn we all laid and I pretended to be asleep nut your sister was just restless and you dozed off. Irebami still wouldn't sleep so I quietly tap her and asked her to follow me so she can allow you sleep.

We left you in the room and I attended to other things. Then I remember that Iya AIsha, my hairdresser and sent someone to check on me. I take Irebami with me and we strolled to Iya Aisha's shop. She was surprised to see me with Irebami and not Modebare because Mode was my constant handbag. Irebami would rather watch PawPatrol than be anybody'd companion.

A few minutes later, we head back home. We got home a few minutes to 6pm and I started getting everyone ready for the 6:30pm service. Dressed Irebami up and then went inside to check my sleeping beauty.

You looked as though you were sleeping still, so I pick up a dress to carefully wear on you without arousing you from your beautiful slumber. In an attempt to lift you up, I noticed you had wet the bed... a very unusual occurrence! So I had to clean you up and change your panties. Then raised your head gently to put the dress on and your head just swung back.

Immediately I knew something was wrong. You had only been asleep for less than an hour so how does anyone sleep and can't hold their head. I nudged you awake and you wouldn't budge.

I called your name, raised you up, slapped your but, did cpr over and over,  called your name again then I knew I had to take you to the hospital.

My Sweet Sugar Coconut!
Labake and I hurriedly left the house, drove you straight to Royan hospital, hoping they would get you out of your state and we can go back home. I called Tunde, he was in faraway Victoria Island, he couldn't help us but I called him still and said 'Tunde! Omo mi o mi mo oooo" (Tunde, My child has stopped breathing). Guess what, he didn't even ask which child, he knew you were the one I called 'omo mi'. It was after I dropped the call that I knew I needed to call someone else, someone who could help! So I called Pastor Seyi.

The nursed at Royan took you from me, Dr. Abara went in to see her, i just sat on the floor and held on to your sister! I kept saying, it is well. You sister will be out in no time.

Then Pastor came and went in to see her, and it took forever and he didn't come out. The doctor too didn't come out yet, I didn't see any nurse taking medication into the emergency room. I barged into the room and saw Pastor Seyi on His knees, your lifeless body sprawled on the table or is it bed before Him! Then I knew!

I knew that my sweet lavender had gone to be with the Lord!

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