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May 22

Today I feel like  a failure!

How can I, the strong, hardworking Bolanle not beable to save her daughter from dying. Whatever happened to my mantra "I will defend my children with my life'?

See I became helpless. I wasnt even given a chance to fight for her! Not a small fighting chance. We didn't have to donate blood or spend money. I didn't even get the chance to plead with her to stay.

You see, I named her Nadya. It means Hope. I didn't even get to call her Name and beg her to give me hope,

I can pray and get results. I have done so successfully in previous times. I am in a good place with God. How come this happened.

Did someone kill her? Dis she die to avoid an impending calamity? Did she die young so she won't have to punishe us even more when she's all grown and more integral to our lives. I truly do not know. I do not know.

All I know is that today, I have failed! As a mother I have failed. As a believer, I have failed.

I apologise for failing you Apeke mi, Ma-Ma is truly sorry. Mama is just another mortal fucked in the ass by the almighty

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